For 35 years I have CHOSEN to bury and not deal with the grief of loosing my father. He passed away when I was 4 in a car accident just blocks from our house.Today was the day I had to deal with it. God has been calling me for well over a week to visit the cemetery where my sweet daddy is buried. Today I gave in and went. It is a 12 mile drive to the middle of nowhere.Today was the day I stopped running, actually God let me get one more run in.
I went ALONE to my fathers grave. I cried all the way there. Telling God I was ready to surrender all. I would walk His road, teach His word, do anything He asked of me.
I got out & stood in front of his grave. I told him how much I had missed him and several other things, then got back into the car. My heart was still very heavy.I just sat there and cried out to God. "What, what do I do now"? "I am here, I said goodbye". God replies" your not done". I said yes I am! "no your not".Ok God , what do you want me to do? He whispers " though you will walk through the valley of the shadows of death you will fear no evil, I will never leave you nor forsake you". OK 2 scriptures combined??? I am still parked next to my fathers grave which is on the end of the cemetery with a long road in front of me. God says " This is the last time you will run from this grief, let me take it. I will give you peace". "Now get out of your car & run, run to the end of this road and back and do not stop." Ok God but people will look at me like I am CRAZY......A women running in a cemetery that faces a major highway in the middle of the country. He says," YOU GET OUT & RUN"! I did just that , I ran & ran. I have a peace today like I have never known before. Thank you God, you always know what I need and the STRANGEST ways to make me get it.
Today looking around the cemetery, it wasn't tombstones or death I saw, It was a beautiful garden.When God speaks or the spirit nudges you listen. This didn't have to take 35 years but God doesn't give up on anyone.
I hadn't visited my fathers grave in 15 years , until my visit today.
How was your Saturday Afternoon?????