Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Is He using you?

Upfront and foremost forgive any typos I may have. I have just had my eyes dilated, I can't see a thing. Thank goodness for spell check.



As May 11th passes again, I am wrapped up in my thoughts of our child in Heaven EMMA. I had a tubal pregnancy 2 years ago.........................(Amy H is so right this blogging is good therapy) ok back on track. They though I had passed the fetus(my child) and did a D &C, she was still in my tube. 2 days later I am bleeding internally the tube had ruptured. I got to ride in an ambulance to Lubbock, where I arrived in the best of care. The Dr. explained he would have to go in and remove both if my tubes, no more baby making or it could be critical. We were ok with that. In to surgery I go and I am really fixin to get to my point and the title.



As I am lying in a holding room for surgery ALONE.....not even a nurse.



I begin to pray. Lord I know any surgery has risk one being death. I am at peace and I am willing to go if it is your will. I have never been at more peace than at that moment. I hear a voice, yes the voice of God. He said.......I AM NOT DONE WITH YOU YET...............I will never forget those words the rest of my life. you ever slow down enough to here Him?



Some of you know I am director of a pregnancy crisis center, where I have the opportunity everyday to share the gospel with our clients. I have spoken many times at schools and conducted many abstinence programs. (sidenote-available to any schools) I have looked at life and what I do for God each day since then. Is He using you? He could if you slowed down to hear His voice. I urge all of you to pray that everyday God would use you to Glorify His name...........



This earth is just temporary, what will your legacy be? I want to get the gospel to as many as possible and God IS USING ME...............

2 comments:

jerriann said...

I love this post. Once I felt the presence of God, His absence makes me tremble with fear. Scary place to be. Love it, sweet sister, "Is He Using You" great title.

Charla (SHar-la) said...

I ask myself that question all the time...what will my legacy be? I think often about what will be said about me at my funeral (I know, a little morbid...lol) and think about what has been said at the funerals of those I have known to be servants of God. I loved this post, friend. I have heard the "voice" (not audible, but the loudest voice I've ever heard) of God, and I agree with Jerri, it's awe-inspiring and makes you want to listen very closely from then on.